I wanted to lighten the mood a little bit, and open up the floor to talk about personal experiences with naked, unvarnished racism. (Like Chappelle said, shit you can’t even be mad at because you’re so stunned.) Fun stuff, right?
I’ll go first. I was maybe 12 or 13, in my church’s sacristy. I was helping this white kid (let’s call him Tommy) who was maybe 8 or 9 find the little rope thing we used to cinch the cassocks we altar boys had to wear. Tommy hailed from the pocket of working-class Italian/Irish families who lived just across from us on Grays Ferry Avenue. We lived maybe a few hundred yards apart, but they never came to our side of Grays Ferry, and we never ventured to theirs.
“Maybe there are extras in the cabinet,” I said absentmindedly.
There was a pause, as he stared at me for a second.
“You’re a nigger,” he said, flatly.
Damn, I thought. Where did that come from?
“What?” I asked.
“You’re a… nigger!” he said. This time, he seemed to be using the type of inflection a kid uses when he figures out the math problem on the chalkboard and just has to shout it out. He was having an epiphany, which I suppose was appropriate since we were in church.
“Um, what the hell?” I said. I was looking at this tiny kid like he’d just shat himself. It was quiet for awhile. And then we served Mass.
I dunno why that’s so funny to me now. In retrospect, I guess it was kind of beautiful watching him take his first, awkward baby steps toward bigotry and I really appreciate how special it is that I got to be a part of that.
(There was another time when I went to their side on the way to Taney Playground, which was a schlep but it had the best courts near our section of South Philly. I was with my boy, when this car full of older white boys rolled up. “Hey! Go home, cottonpicker!” Then they all started laughing before they drove off. This time, I was actually shook. That encounter never became funny to me.)
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